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This week’s prompt 2:
We all have unfulfilled wishes—tell one of yours.
Babies. I always wanted babies. Plural. When I was young I wanted a WHOLE BUNCH of babies. When Jim and I got married we decided on two, maximum. When I was first pregnant and sick every day I was hesitant to go through it again. When we lost our Angel I knew I had to do it again, even though I was terrified. I’m glad I did, because I have Eriana. But I wasn’t sure about doing it again, even though I was willing to try. Jim was positive he didn’t want to do it again. Then I got pregnant again. And then I lost that baby, too. Again, I was willing to try again, but Jim was POSITIVE he couldn’t go through another loss. And I didn’t want to disrespect his wishes. So I got an IUD, and we started thinking about adoption again. Of course, we don’t have the money to adopt right now, and you all know my fears when it comes to adoption anyway.
I know this is a horrible topic to choose, but I really want that second baby. I still do. I love our family, just the three of us, and Eriana will be an excellent only if that’s the way things work out. Our family is complete, and I’m happy. So very, very happy. But I still want that second baby. I might always, even if I never hold that baby in my arms.
Eriana and me on her birthday. Sweet, squishy face. I never wanted to let her go. I’m still hesitant to daily.